Memanggilmu Saatku Jenuh

Ketika merasa dingin, Sunyi, Sepi. 

Ketika tidak ada segelintir matapun yang memperhatikan. 

Seakan daun pun enggan untuk menoleh. 

Debu pun menjauh juga berpaling. 

Sudah? Bosan? Panggil saja namaku..

Sebegitu sulitkah? 

Atau Terlalu mudah untuk dilupa?

Rangkaian huruf memeluk menjadi satu ikatan nama ini. D.. H.. I..
apakah sudah cukup membantu?

Katakan saja...

Lalu kenapa? Malu? takut? 

Tadi katanya dingin, sunyi sepi tak ada yang perhatikan.

Ada satu frekuensi yang tidak kutahu dari mana asalnya. 

Mencoba menterjemahkan ini. 

Tapi tidak ada dalam kamusku. 

Apa ada dalam kamusmu? 

Bolehkah kupinjam sementara? 

Untuk berbicara dengan tulisan itu.

Bagaimana bisa mendegar suara debu berbisik, tanpa mempunyai telinga? 

Atau mencium wangi bunga mawar, tanpa memiliki hidung.

Aku berpikir apakah hidup ini tidak adil. 

Atau kita yang terlampau jenius meninggalkan semua yang diberi.

Sudahlah, semua sudah terlewati. 

Apakah baik untuk memutar haluan? 

Tapi apakah baik menyerah kepada kepasrahan?

Saatku ragu menjamu langkah. 

Yang kupikir hanya akhir nan indah. 

Namamu yang kugoreskan dalam memori lama. 

Saatku jenuh ku akan memanggilnya.

Library Card Member

Sekepindahan dari kampus serang banyak banget yang harus diadaptasi ulang.
Entah lingkungan kampus jakarta, rundown kegiatan harian, sampai administrasi.

Perpustakaan, beda banget sama di kampus serang.
Kalau di kampus serang minjem buku cukup tunjukin kartu taruna.
Ya walaupun pada akhirnya kartu taruna gue hilang di perpus kampus serang.
Gue ga nyalahin petugas sih, ya mungkin aja karena gue yang minjemnya kelamaan sampe bikin petugasnya luppa nyimpen kartu itu dimana.

Nah sistem baru kemudian diterapkan di kampus jakarta.
Kartu perpus dikasih barcode, jadi proses peminjaman buku jadi lebih simpel.
Pengurusan data buku yang dipinjem lebih ringkes, dan dilakukan secara mandiri.
Kita tinggal scan barcode yang ada di kartu anggota, lalu scan 3 buku yang mau elo pinjam.
Iya, cuma 3 buku, engga lebih.

Masalah pun tiba, ketika gue minta kartu gue di petugas perpus ternyata punya gue gaada.
Gue pun shock, dan gue mencoba untuk ingat2.
Yaa, gue lupa.
jadi kartu perpus di kampus jakarta dikumpul ketika kita mau mutasi kampus. That's why kita cuma pakai kartu taruna untuk pinjem buku selama di kampus serang.

Kemudian gue bilang ke petugas perpus kalau gue juga ikut mengumpulkan sewaktu ingin pergi ke kampus serang.
"tapi punya kamu gaada dek, terus kamu mau bilang kalau petugas perpus yang ngilangin kartunya?"
"bukan begitu bu, baiklah saya mengajukan pembuatan kartu perpus baru aja"
"baik, isi data kamu disini. dan kamu wajib lapor selama 7 hari berturut ke saya. baru kartu kamu bisa di proses"

yap emezing, gue harus lapor selama 7 hari baru kartu gue bisa diproses.
Akhirnya gue iyakan, karena ini berkaitan sama clearing nanti ketika mau ujian.
Dan gue emang butuh banget kartu itu.
Setiap hari gue lapor ke perpus, mengikuti kemauan petugas perpus tersebut.

Seinget gue ini di hari ke-3 gue lapor ke perpus.
Dan bapak perpus yang satunya (duh maaf ya pak saya gatau nama bapak :3 ) bilang ke saya.
"Mau ngapain dek? mau lapor diri pak"
"lapor diri apa?"
"jadi kata ibuk yang satunya saya disuruh lapor diri supaya bisa bikin kartu perpus lagi" (literally gue juga gatau nama ibuknya haha)
"emang kartu kamu hilang?"
"iya betul pak"
"sini ikut saya"

gue diajak ke meja administrasi buat ngisi data diri gue.
Gak lama kartu perpus gue jadi.
Tapi baru bisa diambil keesokan harinya karena nunggu kode barcode nya jadi.
Dan gue bayar 5000 rupiah untuk administrasi.

Well, semudah itu ternyata proses pembuatan kartu perpus baru.
mungkin gue yang salah ngomong awalnya ke ibuk yang pertama, akhirnya gue dikerjain.

***

Seminggu kemudian gue pulang ke rumah, dan gue iseng buat buka berkas2 file lama kuliah.
Emang udah jadi kebiasaan rutin buat gue, buka lembar2 lama biar inget2 kenangannya eaa.
Guess what? kartu perpus gue ketemu -.-
Ternyata emang gue ga ngumpulin itu pas clearing sebelum pergi ke serang.
Jadi emang dasarnya gue yang salah, dan gue tiba2 jadi ikhlas pas waktu itu dikerjain hahaha.

Temporary Become a KING

finnaly, now im sitting and writting this word in Jaladri dormitory (east, 3rd floor, maybe u confused, why im in jaladri? ephyra dormitory is being rehab for a long time, and its why im in jaladri.. Taruna Perdana Study Program Aquaculture and Fishing Technology temporary live in Jaladri dorm, and for Fisheries Machinery Technology, Processing Technology and Resources Management technology live in octopus dormitory.. we all hope ephyra as soon as posible ready to be lived by us, estimated 1 month left up to that. different with the first time when i lived in this dorm, here were perbar. im (remaja) perbar (peradana). i must keep this area dormitory clean, indoor and outdoor. and there's much funishment if we break the rules :/., much much much and too much, but now i am the senior of senior in this campuss because my senior Taruna Utama were doing their Industrial Practical or we ussually called KIPA (Karya Ilmiah Praktek Akhir). Now feel free to laughing, screaming, shirtless in this dormitory, hanging clothes everywhere i want. wake until midnight, play song with active speaker, charging gadget in bed and then i sleep. haha too much much much contrast. but over all in the deep of my heart and very very little of my voice i stiil need my senior, to direct me before i really really be the Senior of Senior.. Fisheries University, Jakarta Campuss

Love Story

"you know you make me love you
and you make me fall when i expect you 
and make me crazy going all.." - Moving Brain

i dont know it started from where/when,
but clearly, im happy when im with her (camera)
any problem suddenly disappeared
feels like ocean breeze slippin' thru my hair (eventough i dont have hair)

CAMERA..

everyone exactly know about it.. for me (she)
with her you can immortalize (mengabadikan) every moment in your life.
thru photo or video, and someday you can open the taken picture/video from
last (time/day/week/years/ maybe century) ago to and remind that memory (hiks hiks)

when i was child, my moms and fathe' taken any picture about me, about me and her/him or about us.
and there is some annoying picture. but very joking, because so different with me now.
everyone know me very enthusias, narciss (narsis), and anything that.
but suddenly shock and not believe that in this picture was me hoho

About 1998 in Early

and let me introduce my first camera,
my uncle gave me this camera when i was 3rd grade in Junior High School (SMP Kelas 9 '2010')...

i have some study tour to jogja with all of my batch with the teacher too, but i dont have camera. my mom tell her brother that me need camera, and my uncle borrowing his camera to me.. (until now '2015' haha) 

and this is....

her name is blackie, she is oldie camera, just have 6.0MegaPixels Lense, and still use dry cell battery (AA).
she have many troubles now, suddenly change the photo mode when i push the shutter button. suddenly give alert battery low but actually the battery still have power/energy, and then im replacing the battery, holding the battery with my hand, place again to the camera, and in display screen the battery was full again (HOREEE -.-)
,

im still with her until now, my father was bought camera for me, two times but theyre all didnt strong..
happy with her..
#Blackie

LONELY

i listened from some story human never get enough
free to choose the way to be themselves
or just walk in the wet way.
suddenly make me remember about old iron voice rubbing with the running train
wake her up from her long sleep and then she take a deep breath

may i eat this cake,
just take one take other again if you not enough yet
but finishing your work first
she laughing while chewing that cake also holding other one at the same time

the sun showing itself with tired face
how not, our joke and laugh didnt stop until the first cock crowing
look like heavy in one half,
she give smooth joking to my first offer

different, so different
metamorf must responsible to the all
remember when i was in four grade in elementary school
my teacher asked, why caterpillar change into butterfly
no one answered..

in first the land is dry,
start to get wet
until the all got wet slippery, and be sticky, almost get fall
although no one thing can be some balancer

things, are liquid solid and gas
like in the beginning line, you can choose to become everything
getting push or from inner heart
close your eyes dont forget to open these door

lonely

sometimes im not understand with this scenario
suddenly woke that this world is not only one side
colour arent just green or yellow or red
taste arent just sweet bitter or spicy

i just think how mature persons through their life
isnt it different than you forgot to bring some homework on killer teacher class or
wrongly did a chapter task
or heavier than smoke appear from burned piles of dried leaf

walk to the lef or to the right
wear sloop or shoe want to sleep or not bath,
eat unscheduled
mussy hair, bad perform

until this time still believe that the child world is the simple world ever
but any body like play in just one level?
donothing try a new euforia
or old world increased by a little bit taste

happiness the expensive price
nothing currency can replacing a sincere hapinnes
free, releasing all hard and dificult thing
simple..

Look Behind

Only Two Rules in this world,
The first rule senior are always right.
And the second Rules if you find some mistakes of your senior, just please look behind to the first rule!

we educated to be comamander, leader and anything that, let me invite u to the journey that imposible to be forgotten by me..

its almost reach the final part of basis time #BATCH49, we call PEMBARETAN, some process that must passed by Taruna to unlocked a new attribut to wear (Baret Ungu).
loocated in Salak Mountain, West Java.
many implied assertion given by instructor (pelatih), and one of is 'Feel the air, feel the world, believe you can clutch them, you got them'

Long Time No See

Since i chose to continue my study in this college i rarely write anypost again. This Boarding School almost change my soul, my self, my error brain into a normal brain. i hate to be in this condition, and now im in five-semester or people ussually say 'Taruna Perdana'. I remember my senior in Environtmental Foundation said to me about this school 'dhiek, i know in STP u get more Practice than Theory in the class, but u cant grow up, u cant fly and catch ur dream like u want or u need, believe with me'. i almost get out of this school when i was in semester-three, because i tired, disappointed about system in this school. Lets Try to think, you get directed from you wake up in the morning (4 a.m.) until you take a rest in the night (11 p.m.). Very Much Activity in this school, Morning Activity (Cleaning Campus Area, Sport, or Join Some Other Grup Activity like MarchingBand or Basketball Club), Breakfast, Go to Class to attend the lecture, and back to dormitory to take a lunch, in the afternoon if you dont have any class u have to cleaning dormitory area or maybe you can take a nap, and there is afternoon activity (after ashar's prays), and then take a dinner. ETC... and its make me feel like im a bird in a cage or fish in some fucking tank..

now i was in Grade Three 'Taruna Perdana', and i in Ocean Campus. in this campus i dont have senior any more haha. yes i call im King of Serang. No more Pressure in this campus, and it make me be more creactive, as matter of fact since Semester-Four i was in this campus but im not find my soul yet, i try to build it from zero, from the low, from i dont know where the world i'm. until now, i try to brave, to write anything, to start some big thing, to shout out about screaming soul.

hello world, im Dhieka Prasetyo, maybe you knew my as dikawow hehe, i make a little change about this address blog, from dikawow tobe dhieks.blogspot.com, just to make and start from something fresh

im sure i can...